IT TOOK ME THROUGH THE DRAINING CORE

This is my life, which ain’t completely mine,

Fear of Society, family and friends  that stand in line.

Transmute this sphere I pray,

Cause it Affects my young heart everyday,

This is a sad truth that I wish to convey.

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I bow to thee, Oh lord!

Can you please let me live my life again?

I swear on you, I wont let it go this time,

I’ll make it worth if you change your mind!

The fear in my heart I bore,

It took me through the draining core.

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I have the key to my heart,

But I wont let anyone in.

For people who cant see the real me, behind the cheerful grin.

Please tell me, are you blind?

or just have my pre-image in your mind?!

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Yeah ,sometimes I do feel depressed, 

When I scream on top of my voice unheard and oppressed.

Hiding the hurt, hiding the pain,

I suffocate to an endless rain.

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I took a deep breath  and counted to three,

Saw a picture in my head of who you wanted me to be,

Chops wanted a smile, but eyes don’t agree,

wings wished a flight, but are they free?

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My eyes are filled with tears,

And heart filled with fears with lots of hope I adhere,

but still for me, no one is here.

Just a glimpse in your eyes would make me feel alive.

Why can’t you think like me and revive?

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I bow to thee, Oh lord!

Can you please let me live my life again?

I swear on you, I wont let it go this time,

I’ll make it worth if you change your mind!

The fear in my heart I bore,

It took me through the draining core.

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I am tired, I waited till twelve 

Inquiring hard, Searching in delve

I am still in that raft you left

Eager and desperate to be blest.

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 My past remains with me like pawn,

Cause it’s hard to let go and move on.

But the past is past for a reason,

And was supposed to be only in that season.

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There is a voice in me,

That breaks the silence in mind,

No parents, relatives or friends can chime,

What’s right for me, speaks the voice inside.

By: Nehashree Verma